Okay so far I've only eaten once this month
On Sunday we went to the buffet before the concert and I gained 1.5 pounds so I fasted.
i was supposed to do 72 hours (it would have ended yesterday at 4) but NO my mom HAD to make me eat on Tuesday. I told her i wasn't hungry so don't make dinner for me and she said "how are you not going to eat? You'll just binge if you don't." and then I heard her telling my dad when he got home. Five minutes later he came in and called me for dinner and he sounded upset.
He was watching me the whole time I ate my 4 tablespoons of rice and tortilla with a tablespoon of refried beans aka 117 calories. I wanted to cry each time I took a bite. I think my parents could tell because they were silent.
I'm still so angry that my mom made me eat. I didn't say anything when I left because I was too upset but my dad gave me one of his special high-fives when I was leaving.
I broke my fast at 48 hours and 35 minutes.
Then I started a new fast at 4:40 pm the same day (Tuesday) and I haven't eaten since. I've had a lot of coffee and tea though lol. So far I've gotten to 40 hours and 35 minutes. I'm aiming for at least more than 62 hours (my record) but I'm not sure how it's going to happen because I'm seeing black dots and I'm dizzy. My mom works today at 4 so it will be easy to skip dinner though. I don't know.
I've had 150 calories (dinner on Tuesday and half a tablespoon of dairy-free coffee creamer yesterday) in the past 88 hours and 40 minutes though so that's good.
Meh. I feel bad because Melissa would cry if she knew. She always cries when I tell her I haven't eaten.
On Sunday we went to the buffet before the concert and I gained 1.5 pounds so I fasted.
i was supposed to do 72 hours (it would have ended yesterday at 4) but NO my mom HAD to make me eat on Tuesday. I told her i wasn't hungry so don't make dinner for me and she said "how are you not going to eat? You'll just binge if you don't." and then I heard her telling my dad when he got home. Five minutes later he came in and called me for dinner and he sounded upset.
He was watching me the whole time I ate my 4 tablespoons of rice and tortilla with a tablespoon of refried beans aka 117 calories. I wanted to cry each time I took a bite. I think my parents could tell because they were silent.
I'm still so angry that my mom made me eat. I didn't say anything when I left because I was too upset but my dad gave me one of his special high-fives when I was leaving.
I broke my fast at 48 hours and 35 minutes.
Then I started a new fast at 4:40 pm the same day (Tuesday) and I haven't eaten since. I've had a lot of coffee and tea though lol. So far I've gotten to 40 hours and 35 minutes. I'm aiming for at least more than 62 hours (my record) but I'm not sure how it's going to happen because I'm seeing black dots and I'm dizzy. My mom works today at 4 so it will be easy to skip dinner though. I don't know.
I've had 150 calories (dinner on Tuesday and half a tablespoon of dairy-free coffee creamer yesterday) in the past 88 hours and 40 minutes though so that's good.
Meh. I feel bad because Melissa would cry if she knew. She always cries when I tell her I haven't eaten.
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