Oh and I also feel like a hypocrite towards Melissa--the only person who I feel actually cares about me. Kenia tries to help sometimes and Josefina doesn't know anything about it other than the fact that food scares me, but not much more. Melissa knows everything and supports me with whatever I do. I sometimes want to cry because I know I'm disappointing her and I feel like I'm annoying her everytime I send her a "help me, I ate today and I don't know what to do" text message. She says it doesn't annoy her and she always send me a nice "I love you Luz and I believe in you" as a reply.

I love Melissa so much and I miss her. She's my best friend.